Hope:Eternal freedom

Constantly trying for one dream, dream that failed you! Consistently repeating the same old timetable, timetable that failed you! Probably sitting on the same chair for hours, hours that failed you! A closed room, same habitat, similar habitation for so many years, years that failed you! Battle you couldn’t win, battle that you failed in! So many people achieving so much while all you do is just stare and stay, can’t be happy, for you are still an underachiever, can’t be sad, for you are enlightened. Life is passing so fast like a bullet you want to catch, but you still have The Hindu to read, let’s focus on that instead. When was the last time you looked in the mirror and appreciated your own self? Have you ever looked, you have aged.! Hair loss, dark circles, falling eyesight, stress and never ending suffering. Questions with no answers, explanations with no audience. Never ending cycle of failures, repeated failures. Weigh out, your heart is heavy, soul ruined. One dream! F*cking one dream? Does it even deserve this much? Why did you start this? Was it you or parent’s pressure or may be some stupid tv series that ignited it? Who was it? Your ex may be? She wanted you to crack upsc, may be or May be not? But she couldn’t sympathise with you in your failures? You out and she moved on. By the way, Who was it? I don’t know. But you know what, if, even if after 2/3 failures you haven’t quit this dream, this process. Trust me it is you! It is you, who started it and why you started it. Today it is you. And you are still un-finished.! And this is still un-achieved.! So when we are un-finished, and when it is un-achieved, we look for the line. We don’t give up. Not yet. We Focus on the line and the distance between the line and you. This is not the time to shed tears on people. On their agendas. This is your moment of reflection. Your chance of salvation. So what do you do? You figure out the same old timetable, same old chair, same old habitat but a new enthusiasm. What you do is you begin again. Just because it has not happened in past doesn’t mean it won’t happen in future. So you begin again for the same old dream. May be one last time but you begin again.! I know you are exhausted, you are tired. And You badly want the end. Trust me it will come, end is inevitable, bad or good, in favour or against, doesn’t matter but end will surely come. So bury all your questions, don’t look for the audience. Isolate and find the solace in self. Un-settle all the doubts because you know.. What you need right now is a little bit of hope, And a little bit of character, Endure the suffering, the loss, Get up,,